Exactly like Val.
It’s impossibly hard to wait many more weeks to get feedback about my book.
About my writing.
It’s hard to put your world in the hands of a professional and then wait.
Some days I believe she will see something special in it, like I do. Other days I’m afraid she chose me because she liked the first chapter, and that chapter after chapter she might regret that choice. Maybe I’m missing too much compared to real writers. Maybe I don’t have the skills yet.
I think the first editorial review of the first book you ever write is both heaven and hell. I try to focus on book two so I don’t worry too much, and in many ways it works. I get lost in my own world for hours. But every now and then the doubts come back. I wonder what the editor will say. What she will feel. What she will think as she reads.
I know two months will fly by, but right now I swing between being miserable and overly positive. It somehow feels like being a teenager again, with all the ups and downs, and I guess I will pour that into my books too.
At the same time, every new thing that happens to you moves you along a path of discovery that is exciting and fulfilling. I am enjoying this journey so much, I wish it would never end.
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